Do you ever feel like you are spinning in circles and leaving a trail of who knows what? I have so many things that I would like/need to do but can I get anything done? NO! Why? Oh, I don't know...maybe because I am the most unorganized person on the planet coupled with the fact that I have 2 children under the age of 2 (oh yeah..I am one of THOSE people...and I LIKE it too!) Or it could be the fact that I have absolutely no idea what day it is except for when Sunday, Monday and Friday roll around. The only reason I know these is because of James! Monday he goes back to work, Friday he wears jeans to work, and Sunday cus I always feel guilty not going to church AND James starts to get really grumpy by about 5 or 6 in the evening. Poor guy, dreads going into that place. Can't say I blame him since I worked there too and by the end of it I was having panic attacks and spending an extra 5 minutes in my car giving myself a pep talk just to start my day there. Oh brother! Since leaving that place I can count the times I have been back to pick up/drop off James...3! that's it! I can't even pull into the parking lot with out getting a feeling of dread. Ok, getting that feeling just talking about it! Moving on.
My new years resolution is to be organized yada yada yada. Actually I heard a sermon on "A new way to pray" and it was really good! Talked about praying bold prayers (asking for the BIG things), praying a prayer you know only God can answer (that way you don't second guess whether or not He did answer) and to get moving. Don't just sit on your bum waiting for God to answer that prayer, do something, start like you know He is going to answer it (because He will, may not be what you hoped for but He always answers). So the point in this...my bold specific prayer....HELP ME GET ORGANIZED AND BE THE WIFE JAMES NEEDS ME TO BE. James is a very clean neat person, he likes things put up, I do not. I like things within reach, if I can't see it, it does not exist. I forget about it, then loose my mind trying to remember where I saw it last, which is a losing battle since I DIDN'T see it because its put up...in a nice, neat, perfectly content little box, in its perfect little resting place, where it will stay buried there till the end of times (unless James knows where it went and can find it for me). So I don't put things up, OR I don't know where their home is. Now this is nothing bad against James at all. I strive to make him happy, and to be as neat as him, he is a freak tho, no one can be that neat...ok, only everyone in his family. I wish I was one of them but that would be kind of gross, I would be married to my brother or something. YUCK. Back on track here. The "get moving part" is already started, not going as well as I had hoped. Everything seems easy in your head but always hits a pothole or 2 when you are physically doing something. I found some little plastic totes at home depot for .99, lid and all...made James SO excited when I put stuff in them. The problem is where do I put them when I have put the stuff in them? I need that stuff, I use it everyday...I can't put it up! So I have a nice little bin filled with stuff that is now sitting on the bedroom floor so I can keep an eye on the little bugger. (think Jack Sparrow) JOY TO THE WORLD, THE LORD HAS COME. I always sing that when I am at a road block, or frustrated, or going CRAZY!
Well, its a new day, a day to be organized, a day to enjoy what God IS going to do for me and enjoy His blessings on our family AND I know what day it is too! Its SATURDAY!
Later Alligator
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